This week has been a struggle. Not only did having a seizure take a lot out of me physically, I'm also mentally and emotionally drained. I've had to make a lot of changes in my daily habits that have been a challenge. And I still don't feel like myself. The way I feel phsyically has been affecting my ability to work, which weighs heavy on my mind.
I had to give my shift up for today because of how dizzy and lightheaded I've felt since yesterday morning. It's especially frustrating because I don't know what to do about it or how to fix it. After Tyson left for work this morning I decided to watch one of my many recorded re-runs of Oprah. This one in particular was the episode with Celine Dion and the Canadian Tenors. Every time I watch their performance on this episode I just cry! It is so touching. On this particular occasion I realized how happy it was making me feel to hear them sing. I started thinking about all the wonderful things in my life and the many more to come. I couldn't help but get emotional.
And from this I've decided to change my attitude. This week has been so rough and frustrating. But I know that everything is going to be ok and work out the way it's supposed to work out. When we ask for the answers we don't ever seem to get them when and how we want. But I know that someday I will realize the blessings that will eventually come out of all that has been happening. I know that we're never alone. That thought is extremely comforting. I'm just so happy for this little baby who will be joining us in just a couple of months. He has already brought joy into so many lives. I know things will get better for Tyson and I. If I think about all the good things, they somehow weigh out the bad. I feel lucky to be living the life I live. I wouldn't trade it for anything.
Kiersten-Baby turned 9
3 weeks ago