Time takes time. My great friend and former roommate, Katie, help
ed me come to this conclusion this evening. I was on my way to Rexburg tonight to spend some time with our former roommate, Sydney, and I decided to give Katie a call. I hadn't talked to Katie in a while, and during this particular conversation we discussed the frustrations of enduring trials and not being able to know everything all at once. Recent events have led me to struggle with this concept. How nice it would be to know exactly what my future holds for me so I can have a peace of mind and feel that comfort of knowing for certain everything is going to turn out all right.
I would love to see where I'm going to be in a year or two so I could feel better about the trials in my life right now. But how would I learn anything about myself and my life if I had all the answers at the beginning? If life were easy, we would have nothing to show for our time here.
President Boyd K. Packer said: "Life will not be free from challenges, some of them bitter and
hard to bear. We may wish to be spared all the trials of life, but that would be contrary to the great plan of happiness, 'for it must needs be, that there is an opposition in
all things' (2 Nephi 2:11). This testing is the source of our strength."
I'm grateful for my trials because of the blessings that come from enduring them. I may not feel grateful at the time, but in my soul I know that there is something better that will come because of how I deal with my trials. I know that although I may struggle at times, things will eventually get better. And I will always have a loving Heavenly Father by my side. He will never leave us, especially during times of need. And it is at these times in our lives when it is especially important to keep that closeness there. All is well when we have an eternal perspective.
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"Be of good cheer, and do not fear, for I the Lord am with you, and will stand by you; and ye shall bear record of me, even Jesus Christ, that I am the Son of the living God, that I was, that I am, and that I am to come."
(D&C 68:6)
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I am grateful for a Heavenly Father who loves me and knows me. I am grateful that though I now often feel alone and wonder why my life has taken the turn it has, He is there to comfort me. I'm so happy to have the family and friends that I have and how supportive they are. Time takes time. And as much as I want all the answers now, I know that is not possible. There is too much I have left to learn about myself before I can have all my questions answered. If life were easy, it wouldn't be hard. In the words of President Gordon B. Hinckley: "Just do the best you can, but be sure it is the very best. Then leave it in the hands of the Lord."